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- Well it has been awhile since I have been on this site. In the beginning, I think it saved my sanity. Eventually I didn't need to hear everyones stories to help me not feel so alone. I have also joined a FB support group but in time my posting have...
- When my husband died over a year ago, he left no will. He did leave several credit card debts. Since I lived in a community state I was under the impression that I would be responsible to pay so I have been making minimum payments since his death. I...
- i feel so out of it today. I am not weepy or crying but I am so unmotivated. Haven’t showered in 2 days. Still in my pj’s and it is 6pm. I have a house to clean and gifts to wrap. I am 9 months in. I think my grief is catching up with me. I was...
- It has been 9 months since my husband passed away. Though I think about him everyday, it does overpower me like it used to. I moved closer to my family so my kids could know the family but this has brought on a whole new set of issues. I have not...
- Yesterday we were hit with a winter snow storm. I have lived in California for the last 25 years so this is the first storm I have seen since moving out east. My brother had invited me over for his wife birthday. We were having pizza and game with...
- i told my kids we will go get a tree today, I am so dreading this event. The fact is I feel numb to the holidays this year. I made it through our anniversary, Halloween and thanksgiving but Christmas has really done me in. My husband loved Christmas...
- The harderst part about losing your loved one is how you lose yourself in the process. Not only are you no longer part of this couple but you can never go back to the person you were before.I was such the crazy, sacrastic person. I would burst into...
- Today I woke up and looked out the window and it looked like snow. I thought, I should wake up my husband and tell him as this is the weather he loved then I remembered he is no longer here. It has been 8 months since he passed now and I am...
- My husband used to always tell me he was worth more dead to me then alive. I always hated when he said this but when you looked at the numbers it was true. He retired early a couple of years ago and started collecting a very nice pension. We...
- Even though it is still very early in the morning my mind has been on major overdrive for hours now. It started with a memory reminder from Facebook, reminding me it was my 21st wedding anniversary. To be honest I forgot. Since I am not working and...
- Last night was my nephews confirmation. I have not been in a church in many years. I was shocked when halfway through the tears started flowing. I was in my own mind, in my thoughts. All I could think about was all the times I prayed while my...
- I guess today my post will be more of a rant. Today makes 7 months since my husband passed. Somedays it feels like he never even exsisted. I have to take his picture out and look at it to make sure he was even real. I moved to be closer to my family...
- I know the first year is always the hardest. The first of everything. Here comes the roller coaster of my life. My husband and I always used to joke about our busiest time was October - Feb. It is filled with my birthday, our anniversary,...
- I thought one good thing about moving to a new town was leaving the past behind but that never really happens. I can now pick and choose who I tell I am a widow or at least I thought that. My brother was fixing up the house a week before I can....
- So, I finally made it. I have moved my family 2,800 miles away. I have been in my new home for exactly one week. My former home closed yesterday, so I can't go home even if I wanted to. The boys are settling in as best as they can. It is nice to see...