Missinglisa

Another green smiley Monday.  I am not feeling very smiley today but I am thankful for some things.1.  I am getting back to exercise (again).  I have walked or gone snowshoeing every day this past...

Today is our 43rd anniversary.  I find it so hard believe because I don't feel like I have been married for 43 years.We are in Banff.  We went snowshoeing this afternoon and are going out for a...

Sometimes people just can't get a break.  My son is a writer waiting on an agent.  His manager is trying to get a well known one. Unfortunately, he has a habit of cancelling meetings.  Andrew has...

Monday again!  As a retired person, it is mostly just another day. Mostly because I like the Green Smiley.  It reminds me to reflect - look at the positives, and I am getting a bit more...

I had a dream of Lisa for the first time last night.  It was a good dream except her asthma was giving her a bit of grief.  It was just nice to see her and talk to her.  It was sort of a dream in...

I was wondering what to smile about.  I then talked to my son and realized that, although my family (the ones I care most about) is small, we are very close - emotionally if not geographically.  In...

I sort of forgot about Green Smiley Monday yesterday.  It was actually a good day overall - until I went to bed.  Then I began to think of Lisa and started to cry - and cry.  I was up until 1:30...

It is now January 1, 2011.  Lisa has been gone for over a year and I still can't believe it.  It seems more unreal than it did a year ago.  I am sitting here listening to music and avoiding going...

We survived Christmas better than we anticipated; we ate, laughed, opened presents - I think it was worse wondering how it was going to go.  Last year was a blur - we were in zombie mode.My...

Harvey, Cevyn, Andrew and Tiina are all here. We had our turkey dinner today as Cevyn and her dad will be having Christmas dinner with Harvey's dad tomorrow.  It is fine with me as Andrew and Tiina...

Our grand-daughter and son-in-law are en route to Calgary.  Their plane is an hour and a half late so we will be at the airport at midnight. It is still hard to comprehend that Lisa won't be with...

I spent Friday and Saturday crying.  Today was a bit better.  Our friends came last evening and are staying until tomorrow.  It helps to think about other things.The phone rang during dinner...

We began our Christmas shopping to-day.  I am determined to maintain some of the traditions that Lisa initiated after Cevyn was born.  One is filling everyone's stocking with socks, candy and other...

Better late than never.  After a weepy day yesterday, I had a good day today.  Lisa's friend drove down from Red Deer and we went for lunch.  We had a really nice visit with laughter and tears and...

We were going through the closet today; trying to get make room to get in to it.  I came across some of Lisa's school and after school stuff - her assignments, her medals from running, her...