Green Smiley Monday

I was wondering what to smile about.  I then talked to my son and realized that, although my family (the ones I care most about) is small, we are very close - emotionally if not geographically.  In this I include Lisa's husband.  If anyone remembers, I was on the verge of strangling him as he was not dealing well with Lisa's passing.  I was distraught and had no patience for his behaviour.  As I look back, I realize he was doing what he always did when he was hurting - spend, spend, spend and do anything to avoid dealing with the loss. He has come a long way, and thankfully he did not cut me off from my granddaughter.
We now have a good relationship and our little was altogether for the holiday - Andrew, my son,  Tiina, his wife,  Harvey, Lisa's husband and Cevyn, our beautiful granddaughter.  We are all still grieving but are here for each other.  And that means a lot. 
Lisa is with us in spirit - I can now  smile each time a see a VW beetle.  Lisa loved her little beetle convertible.  She said it made people smile as she drove with the top down and the children played Punch Buggy.
I feel so sad for those whose families are not supportive.  This journey is sad enough as it is.

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biowoman
biowoman

This is a great journal! I am so glad that you found something to smile about...and I don\'t really believe it was hard for you to find it! Good for you...and you are so wise to realize that Lisa\'s husband was struggling through...what was probably the worst thing HE had ever lived through too. Makes me smile that YOU can smile to see VW bugs! Love to you...Karen
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

What a gift a close family provides and I am so glad to know that as you thought about things you could journal such a positive entry. Thank you for sharing and VW\'s are such happy little cars. Glad they bring a smile as you think of Lisa. Love, Joanie
KandL
KandL

Love the VW bug and the image of Lisa smiling as she tooled around the city enjoying her \"ride\" and encouraging kids to play \"punch buggy\"! What a fun- loving woman! I\'m so happy you and Harvey are close. Its such a good thing for Cevyn. If we must go through this journey how good it is not to be alone but to share this with others who know, love and miss your precious daughter. Thank you for sharing this beautiful entry. I am blessed too to have a good relationship with my former DIL and it means a lot to have all of us close and supportive of one another even though she and Eddie had split up several years ago.. Love to you and your special family, Linda
KellyLee105
KellyLee105

lol, I remember my kids playing punch buggy when they were little.. I didn\'t realize it was an actual game, haha..love, Kelly
RememberKala
RememberKala

When we look, we can always find something you smile about. Seems you have a lot to smile about! Your journal makes me smile too. Kala wanted a beetle at first, then fell in love with the Scion tC. But I\'ll always think of the beetle as her first love. Smiles :)
NoraMc
NoraMc

What color was Lisa\'a VW, Morgan\'s was yellow, we always say hi Morgan when we see a yellow vw. Nora
Missinglisa
Missinglisa

Lisa\'s VW was silver. I do the same thing when I see a bug!
CorriesMom
CorriesMom

A journal entry of hope and peace ~ thanks so much! Our family is like yours ~ very close emotionally even if not geographically ~ we are truly blessed.

I\'ll keep an eye out for silver bugs!

Love and smiley hugs to you ~ Debbie
deleted_user
deleted_user

You are blessed with close family support in your journey of grief in missing Lisa. May you always be blessed in this way. Sincerely, Barb