Missinglisa

I read a discussion topic "last words".  The last words I heard were "I can't talk I am leaking all over the place - gotta go, love you Mum" - after laparoscopic surgery that went terribly wrong. ...

We lost our funny, smart, creative 37 year old daughter on December 1.  It has been a heartbreaking month trying to come to grips with the fact that she is no longer here.  She was the one who made...

I am feeling sort of empty tonight.  I got a new laptop - a Mac to replace the one that is on it's last legs.  I often write letters to Lisa in a document.  I tried to go in to write and found...

I usually journal on Mondays but I missed yesterday.  I did have a fairly smiley Monday.  It was my last day with my friend in Ontario.  We went on a road trip to some small towns.  The towns in...

My green smiley was a day early!  That's what wine and a late night can do!!!  On the upside, I can have tomorrow off. 

Well the new year has arrived.  I wonder what the year will bring.The green smiley bit is:I had a lovely surprise from my son at the stroke of midnight.  He called us and we had a good chat.We...

I am sort of smiling.  I got through Christmas without ruining it for everyone else! And of course, I enjoyed watching Cevyn open gifts.  We reminisced a bit about Christmases past.Although I had...

We are in Ottawa for Christmas - before Lisa died, I would have said we are celebrating.  But for me it is memories and trying to put on a smiley face for Cevyn.Joe and I and a neighbour who loved...

It is Monday again.  I have actually posted journals during the week! As I said, it has been an emotional week.  On the one hand I am glad Beth is here as a mother figure.  But I miss Lisa, not...

It feels like I have been on a roller coaster the last couple of days.  We are now in Ottawa with our granddaughter, her dad and his fiance.  My emotions have been up and down.  We visited Lisa's...

We made it to Ottawa.  It was hard walking in to Lisa's house.  Harvey and Beth, with Cevyn's input, have done some major renos.  Lisa wanted to do a lot of the stuff they did but there was never...

Another week has passed. It has been fairly positive.  Despite the weather - which fluctuates from relatively warm (above freezing) to very cold and windy. So what is positive?1.  We had some...

It is sort of a green smiley Monday. We are in Edmonton for a Christmas get together with our son and DIL. Instead of turkey, we went out for a seafood dinner. We are going to Ottawa in a week and a...

Yesterday was my baby's second angel day.  it was a day of remembering - the good and the not so great.  I had candles burning all day.  The tears came and went - tears of sadness, longing and...

I usually journal on Monday but missed yesterday. I  am feeling unusually calm considering it is Lisa's 2nd Angel Date on Thursday.  We went for a long walk yesterday - walking usually helps me;...