Memories

We were going through the closet today; trying to get make room to get in to it.  I came across some of Lisa's school and after school stuff - her assignments, her medals from running, her certificates from piano, ballet.  She loved dancing and was good but didn't have the tiny boned body.  I think the hardest was finding photos from the time she was in Grade 1 until shortly after she had Cevyn, her beautiful daughter - her pride and joy.  I cried and cried, as did Joe.  It is so unbelievable, even after a year.
All the memories came flooding back.  When I saw her smile, it broke my heart again, knowing that I won't see that grin in person or hear her laugh.
We will get through Christmas because she would want it but it ain't gonna be easy.

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NoraMc
NoraMc

I hope you can cherish all things...treasures you found in the closet. Take each day as they come, a holiday is just another day. peace,Nora
Robin4
Robin4

Almost anything can trigger that instant heartache especially pictures and those memories do come back with full force. I pray that after the tears you can have smiles at the precious time you shared. You will get through Christmas. We will be here to help one another. Muchlove. Robin
KandL
KandL

Sweet Marlene, I agree with Robin and Nora. We will get through Christmas together and we will lift each other up. I think going through our kids\' possessions after they pass is one of the hardest things we will ever have to go through. It took me 2 days to clean out Ed\'s apartment and disperse his belongings and the finality of it was excruciating, especially returning the key to the landlord. It is hard even to believe after 16 months that I will not have him physically here with me ever again,in this life. I do understand and yet I have hope for all of us that those treasures as Nora said will be things that don\'t cause us pain forever and that they will be things of our childrens\' to cherish. Love and to you and precious Lisa, Linda
CorriesMom
CorriesMom

No, it won\'t be easy to get through Christmas. But I do think that each step we take in facing our pain and sadness, like clearing out closets, is a step towards renewal. Each of Lisa\'s treasures a sweet echo of her life with you.

I send the tightest of hugs and lots of love to you, Lisa and Joe ~ Debbie
biowoman
biowoman

It is so hard...no matter how long the time...but somehow we manage...and we make it...love to you...Karen