Missinglisa

Monday is not usually my favourite day but today I have something to smile about.  Tiina is being discharged from the hospital after her hysterectomy.  She has done amazingly well.

My husband and I attended a support group last evening.  It was incredibly emotional as we shared our stories.  Some people found it incredibly uncomfortable.  I think it was good for me as I met...

It is Monday and it is supposed to be positive.  Hmmm.  It is soon time to leave Ottawa and head for home - with a stop in Thunder Bay to visit a friend whose husband is very ill.  I am looking...

It was a good day for the most part.  I met 2 of Lisa's good friends and went for breakfast.  We then picked my granddaughter up from school at noon and went shopping.  It was wonderful to talk to...

I had trouble deciding on a theme for this journal entry.  For a change I feel a little bit positive but probably more reflective.  I am with my granddaughter and her dad.  We had a pleasant...

This is Thanksgiving weekend in Canada.  We had friends over and had a nice visit and the turkey and pumpkin pie were delicious.But - Lisa is in heaven for Thanksgiving and I miss her terribly.  We...

We woke up to glorious sunshine so decided to go for a drive into the Mountains.  We stopped at a trail head where we saw several cars.  A lady and park warden were looking up so I asked whether...

My niece's daugther got married on Saturday.  Lisa was supposed to do the wedding cake.  We have been looking forward to this for a long time. Lisa was so excited that she was asked.  Liz put off...

It seems like it is one step forward and 10 back.  My niece's daughter is getting married on the 25th.  It is a wedding we have been looking forward to for a long time.  Last week we heard that...

I turned 65 yesterday.  I had a party on Saturday night which was a lot of fun.  The only problem - Lisa was not there (probably in spirit but she wasn't entertaining the crowd).  It was an...

I feel panic.  Now that my husband and I are home and our granddaughter has gone home, I feel a sense of panic.  I am waiting for a dreadful phone call. My brother is not well, my niece has a heart...

My granddaughter Cevyn was here to visit for 10 days.  She is a beautiful 14 year old.  I worry because she does not express her emotions.  I, on the other hand, cry and cry. The counselor said it...

I went to visit my colleagues today.  I am comfortable being retired at the moment.  I was rather dreading going back - I worked from January to April after Lisa died.  I look back and wonder what...

I read a discussion topic "last words".  The last words I heard were "I can't talk I am leaking all over the place - gotta go, love you Mum" - after laparoscopic surgery that went terribly wrong. ...

We lost our funny, smart, creative 37 year old daughter on December 1.  It has been a heartbreaking month trying to come to grips with the fact that she is no longer here.  She was the one who made...