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I feel melancoly today.  I don't know why.  I worked hard this morning getting my resumes out.  I talked to Carol on the phone.  I had lunch.  I went out to Value Village and got my lottery...

This morning I cleaned Smokey's dusty car, which was his baby.  I never have driven in my life.  I used the swiffer to clean it and went over it with Windex.  Since I don't drive, I can't take it...

Our loved ones would never want us to feel guilty about anything.  Those who have passed on only want the best for us.  Your partner/spouse/mother/father/family memeber or friend will always be...

Thought I was on the upward slope of healing.  Big Surprise today that I am not.  I am in so much pain but it is not all about Smokey just my entire life without him.  It is so not fair how losing...

You know when  you are healing if you are looking out the window again instead of being shut in like a hermit emotionally speaking. You know when you are on the upswing to positive healing when...

It is easy to miss read signals from the opposite sex when you are a widower/widow.  Being and widow or widower makes you very vulnerable and lonely.  This can make you miss read the signals that...

It's been six months since my Smokey died.  I feel like an evil woman flirting with a guy at Legends Bar.  It has been on-going for awhile now.  My brother Don and I went to Legends last night...

I am angry at having to deal with the car/bank etc.  Smokey owed about half of what he got the car for in 2005.  It was his baby and he treated the car real good.  Because he has two daughters, I...

I still have to deal with Smokey's car which was his baby.  It is in his name but I have storage insurance on it because I do not drive.  ICBC wants the Letters of Administration before I can get...

It has been six months since my Smokey died.  How could I have missed his anniversary date?  On the actually six months date, I had my brother Don over for dinner and he distracted me.  It was the...

Triggers:  it is funny what can make you cry.  I was watching Regis & Kelly.  They played the Sonny & Cher song "I Got You Babe" and it reminded me of Smokey.  I just started to bawl my head off...

The releasing of Smokey's ashes itself was okay.  It was the afterwards that was hard for me.  When I got home, it was like the unbearable pain of loss when Smokey first passed away.  It hit me...

I released Smokey's ashes today at the tip of Garry Point, Steveston, BC on a sunny and windy day.  I should have taken the wind factor into consideration when releasing Smokey's ashes but did...

What is the difference between someone being being friendly, someone interested in you and flirting?  I haven't been in the dating game for many years.  I just lost my husband on Sunday, November...

I say to those that have not lost anyone close to them to death "Walk a mile in my shoes."  It is not easy.  We just don't get over it.  After one month, we are just starting the grieving...