I am melancoly today. Who knows why?
I feel melancoly today. I don't know why. I worked hard this morning getting my resumes out. I talked to Carol on the phone. I had lunch. I went out to Value Village and got my lottery tickets. On the walk home I started to feel melancoly or blue. I guess it is still because I am all alone and Smokey would not be there to greet me. Normally, if Smokey was alive, he would have been at work but you know what I mean. I am coming back home to an empty apartment without my Smokey to share it with me. On top of that both my friend, my daughter and my brother have plans for today so I won't be going out. I have no idea what I am going to do tomorrow. I was thinking that I should get a hobby but don't know what I want to do. I don't want to get into knitting or croucheting. At least I got out and walked. It was a nice sunny day. I think this Daily Strength is my life line when I am so alone. A person can only watch so much TV. Actually, I am starting to get bored with TV viewing. I play solitaire or yahtzee all by myself. TV is not that interesting when you are watching it by yourself. Smokey and I used to make fun of whatever show we were watching together. It was a lot of fun for us. Oh well, we can't have everything in this life can we? I don't think so or we all would be very happy. I would have my Smokey back in my life again and that would make me very happy. When I was single, it was different living by yourself. After having a husband and then he died, it is so different and so very hard. It is not fun being alone after having a wonderful partnership and companionship. It's what I miss most is the companionship Smokey and I had with one another. It was great but not perfect. It was the best partnership that both of us had in our lives. Our first marriages were bad that it put a sour taste in our lives. Missing my Smokey and being alone with myself, all the best for everyone and thank you for giving me lots of hugs cause we all need hugs don't we? Diane
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