DianeMTB

After losing my husband one month ago in a sudden death of a heart attack, I am having good days and bad days & good moments and bad moments.  Grieving takes time.  Christmas Day was hard but my...

I want to heal from the grief of losing my husband named Smokey who died on Sunday, November 15, 2009.  He was only 60 years of age.  It was a sudden heart attack.  He died at home in the bathroom.

I miss my husband affectionately called Smokey.  He died on Nov. 15, 2009.  I miss him each and every day.  It hurts so much.  I am in great pain at Smokey's passing away.  I look around the...

I hurt and am in pain over the loss of my husband.  At times I look at our bed and just cry.  I look at his picture and I cry.  I remember all the wonderful things he did and I cry.  I remember...

I had planned to do some small grocery shopping.  Instead, I just sat in my chair and had a cry fest.  I am just waiting to build up the courage to go grocery shopping.  I feel like I just want to...

I lost my husband and its all the little things he did that I miss so much.  He loved to order through Publishers.  He knew what I loved.  If he thought I would like something, he would order it...

My husband passed away Nov. 15, 2009 without a will and with two estranged daughters.  It is not easy.  I had to see a lawyer to get a Letter of Administration which will take 2 1/2 months.  Alll...

I lost my husband, Smokey, suddenly on Nov. 15, 2009.  I think he had a stroke.  I am waiting for Vancouver General Hospital to do an autopsy as he did not have a doctor.  I encourage all people...

Losing Smokey was like my heart stopping, I could not breathe anymore and my reason to was gone out of my life completely one hundred percent.  Smokey was my air to breathe.  Smokey was my reason...

It's been two years on Nov. 15, 2009 when Smokey died and I am crying already.Yesterday I could not figure out why I was crying so much.  The light bulb opened up my brain.  I am still grieving the...

I am feeling my age, weight etc.  Its a downer day today.  Who wants to be with a 55 years old woman anyways?  All the guys my age or older all want young hot women. Its so hard to meet someone....

It took a long time to accept the fact Smokey is gone and that I am a new single woman.  It comes with time.  

I am finding myself a better person for the horrible ordeal of losing my Smokey. 

It feels like I am coming out of a two years coma after Smokey died on Nov. 15, 2009. I think I went into a freeze or something.  I think slowly I am coming out of the deep freeze of feelings and...

I had a great day today.  I did not have anything planned.  My brother Don was coming over at 11 a.m. to take me out for lunch.  My cousin Esther calls me.  I said Don is taking me out for lunch....