You know when you are healing if you are looking out the window

You know when  you are healing if you are looking out the window again instead of being shut in like a hermit emotionally speaking. 
You know when you are on the upswing to positive healing when life doesn't seem as bad as it was even though you lost your loved one or my better half.
You know when you are healing when you are starting to look at the opposite sex again with lust in your eyes cause you miss the physical contact with your spouse.
You know when you are healing when you are still vulnerable and lonely but want to broad on the side of cautiousness and go slowly in a romantic relationship even though it is still in your mind or thoughts
You know when you are healing if you are starting to get interested in the opposite sex but feel guilty for being disloyal to your husband/wife
Healing is a good thing.  After six months, I never thought I would get this far.  I am looking for more inward/emotional healing from the loss of my Smokey.  He would be happy for me.  I know that in my heart.  Smokey loved me deeply and vice-versa.  I was lucky.  Can I be that lucky again with another good man?  I ask myself that question all the time.  Is it possible?  I sure hope so.  I am looking out the window again with a smile on my face for the possibilities that are ahead for me.  God bless us each and every one of us for the new possibilities ahead of us.