PJsmom

Jeez, I just saw that it was7 months ago that I've written anything.  Things are going as expected i guess, some good days here and there, but mostly just lost days, I just don't seem to be able to...

It's been such a very long time since I've been here.  PJ's angel date is tomorrow, although Tues. was the day that he comitted suicide, and my life ceased to exist as a normal one.  It still feels...

Hello everyone, I know it's been awhile since I've written, but the past month has been pretty awful, didn't know it could get any worse than it already was.  I've come to the conclusion I don't...

Well, I made it through Thanksgiving, it really was an awful day, I'm so used to calling my boys and wishing them a Happy Thanksgiving and I couldn't call PJ.  What am I going to do?  I think these...

Well, it's only a week till Thanksgiving, I suppose that's why I feel such a sense of overwhelming sadness.  it's really been awful for the past couple of weeks, noticed I've been taking my adivan...

Hello again friends, I know it's been awhile, I think I've been in a perpetual funk these past 6 months, it's 6 months today that PJ took his life, sometimes I think this part is worse than the day...

I'm so sorry for the previous entry, God, I was in a real funk that day.  it just seems so pointless at times, like it's just not worth the effort to go on.  As much as I love PJ, it wouldn't be...

Life just plain sucks and I'm not sure I want to do this anymore.

You know, I thought as time went on this road would get alittle easier, it's so hard to believe that PJ's been gone for only 4 months.  I look at his pictures everyday, and wonder how he came to...

I just can't believe it.  I've been trying to get the Worcester County DA's office to investigate this girl that acussed my son of raping her, well, you'll never believe it, I finally got a...

One day at a time, sometimes not even that, but trying.

Hello my friends, Well, I made it through PJ's birthday, God it was awful, seems like all I did was cry.  I don't think the grief is going away, I think I'm just learning to hide it better, isn't...

Well, PJ's birthday is in 2 days, I'm really dreading it, and tomorrow will be just 3 months since he comitted suicide.  I just had the weirdest thing happen as I was sitting here typing and...

Well, it's been awhile since I've been here.  It's been pretty hectic since the 4th of July.  We went to my in laws for the holiday and I fainted!!  So they call 911 and off to the hosp. I go. ...

Well, I went to my regular Dr. Tuesday, and he said I have high blood pressure, 200/108, said I was stroke material!!  So now I'm on Adivan, Paxil and high blood pressure meds and sleeping pills!! ...