PJsmom

It's been 25 days now, since PJ died, seems totally impossible, that'll I'll never see my son again, to give him a hug or a kiss, or see that goofy grin of his.  They say God never gives you more...

It's been 20 days now since PJ committed suicide, it's bad enough to lose a child, but this suicide thing is killing me.  I know he must have had his reasons, this isn't something he would have done...

Wow, I can't believe it's been 8 months since I've been on!  Summer is a busy season for me, Thank God, The busier I am, the less time I have to think.  Sometimes thinkings not good.  My Dr. upped...

I seem to have gotten past my previous emotions for the time being, but now I have had another sudden death to deal with, my best friend passed away on the 29th from a massive heart attack.  I'm...

I don't know what's wrong with me today, but I feel like I'm going to explode, I feel like I'm going to hurt someone or myself, not sure which, what I really want to do is go to Worcester and beat...

Jeez, I just saw that it was7 months ago that I've written anything.  Things are going as expected i guess, some good days here and there, but mostly just lost days, I just don't seem to be able to...

It's been such a very long time since I've been here.  PJ's angel date is tomorrow, although Tues. was the day that he comitted suicide, and my life ceased to exist as a normal one.  It still feels...

Hello everyone, I know it's been awhile since I've written, but the past month has been pretty awful, didn't know it could get any worse than it already was.  I've come to the conclusion I don't...

Well, I made it through Thanksgiving, it really was an awful day, I'm so used to calling my boys and wishing them a Happy Thanksgiving and I couldn't call PJ.  What am I going to do?  I think these...

Well, it's only a week till Thanksgiving, I suppose that's why I feel such a sense of overwhelming sadness.  it's really been awful for the past couple of weeks, noticed I've been taking my adivan...

Hello again friends, I know it's been awhile, I think I've been in a perpetual funk these past 6 months, it's 6 months today that PJ took his life, sometimes I think this part is worse than the day...

I'm so sorry for the previous entry, God, I was in a real funk that day.  it just seems so pointless at times, like it's just not worth the effort to go on.  As much as I love PJ, it wouldn't be...

Life just plain sucks and I'm not sure I want to do this anymore.

You know, I thought as time went on this road would get alittle easier, it's so hard to believe that PJ's been gone for only 4 months.  I look at his pictures everyday, and wonder how he came to...

I just can't believe it.  I've been trying to get the Worcester County DA's office to investigate this girl that acussed my son of raping her, well, you'll never believe it, I finally got a...