Well, PJ's birthday is in 2 days, I'm really dreading it, and tomorrow will be just 3 months since he comitted suicide. I just had the weirdest thing happen as I was sitting here typing and thinking about PJ, I live in an extremely rural area, no businesses, no sidewalks, just a few neighbors and trees, very quiet, when i heard 2 very loud taps on my front window, there is absolutly no reason why it should have done that! I'm sitting right next to it and there was nobody or nothing there, and the screen is on the outside of, so it was inside, so I'm kind of thinking maybe PJ was saying hi, so I just said hi back!! I just don't know what to make of it, maybe I'm just wanting it to be him, I don't know.Even my cat has been acting strange lately, he scratched my husband a couple of months ago and he got "cat scratch fever", literally, well Sunday, I was just patting him and he jumped up and grabbed my wrist and clawed the crap out of it, now I have cat scratch fever, he's never done this before and I've had him since he was a kitten, weird things have been going on, if it is PJ, I wish I knew what he was trying to say to me. I hate feeling this way, I miss him so much I ache constantly, I wish there was some magic pill that would make it all go away.
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I believe that PJ is stopping in to tell you hi and he loves you, primarily.
I was thrilled the one and only time that Chad popped in.
The cat\'s behavior if very odd.
Chad\'s birthday comes August 30th, and his angel date is one week later Sept 6th. I have not turned the calendars at home or either of my 2 work locations from July. I am trying to avoid triggers.
I hope your day improves and PJ lets you know what he is trying to tell you.
Hugs, Barbara
There are many, many \"unexplained\" or explainable things that we moms now experience. If it brought you comfort then it was PJ. Don\'t overanalyze...go with your gut. Love to you my friend...Karen
The first birthdays, anniversarys, holidays, etc... are so hard, but sometimes just working up to it is harder than the actual day is. The cat\'s behavior is strange. I too, think PJ is just letting you know he is with you. Wishing you some peace, Hugs, Kim
Oh dear! You are going through what I dread. Jim\'s birthday is Oct. 13. You have to go through both his birthday and angel date. It\'s gotta be tough! Maybe you\'re lucky in that they come close together though.
I AM SURE it was PJ knocking....how else can you explain it. He wants you to know that he\'s okay. And he is.
Animals pick up what\'s happening. My dog stopped barking at Jim\'s friends when they come by when he used to bark and nip at them. They know when something\'s happened. Your cat\'s reaction is probably related to his picking up on something that he doesn\'t understand.
Love and hugs to you as you go through the first b/d and 3 months date. You are still so very fresh and raw in this. Many people have told me on this journey that the anticipation of an event is worse than the event itself and it is true. Belinda
Frazer\'s birthday is the 8th, so I know what you are going through. This will be the second birthday he hasn\'t been here for and it isn\'t any easier than last year. After FJ died, my tap would start to drip in the kitchen and then stop, it had never done that before. The other night the light went off and on again in the bathroom and I said, \"Hi Frazie J is that you? and then the tap in the kitchen dripped and stopped!\" I laughed and told him he is getting good! I\'m sure he visits me through my cat, sometimes when she is being super affectionate I look at her and I see FJ in her eyes. Hugs to you, Charlotte.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you on PJ\'s birthday. Birthdays have been hard for me but I hope you will have some smiles before the tears. I try to be open minded about unexplainable events, it brings me hope. Love to you. Robin
bless your heart today and always. i pray you find some peace today. this journey is awful, it have been 10 mos for me, and it is still awful. there is always a black cloud that hangs around. i know my son is with our Heavenly Father, but i miss him so much and wish he could have stayed around longer. I know its selfish but sometimes when people tell me, well God needed him, I think, \"well i think i needed him more\" I dont understand things, anyway i personally think you are hearing from pj. my sister and i heard from my son in his first months of having left this earth. i still feel his presence in my house. my sister had door shut when she was talking to my son, and one of her son\'s musical books went off and played a song, and it is hard to do, you have to press a button to make the song go and no one was in the room except her sitting on the couch and across the room. i can go on and on, but wont right now. please be kind to yourself today
bless your heart today and always. i pray you find some peace today. this journey is awful, it have been 10 mos for me, and it is still awful. there is always a black cloud that hangs around. i know my son is with our Heavenly Father, but i miss him so much and wish he could have stayed around longer. I know its selfish but sometimes when people tell me, well God needed him, I think, \"well i think i needed him more\" I dont understand things, anyway i personally think you are hearing from pj. my sister and i heard from my son in his first months of having left this earth. i still feel his presence in my house. my sister had door shut when she was talking to my son, and one of her son\'s musical books went off and played a song, and it is hard to do, you have to press a button to make the song go and no one was in the room except her sitting on the couch and across the room. i can go on and on, but wont right now. please be kind to yourself today
Hi i hope you had a blessed day yesterday and I am so sorry for what you have to go through and the firsts that will be occurring because they are really tough. But you are a strong woman and I know you will get through it. I am sure PJ was letting you know that he is okay and does not want you to worry and know that he is in God\'s hands. My prayers are with you at this difficult time.