PJsmom

One day at a time, sometimes not even that, but trying.

Hello my friends, Well, I made it through PJ's birthday, God it was awful, seems like all I did was cry.  I don't think the grief is going away, I think I'm just learning to hide it better, isn't...

Well, PJ's birthday is in 2 days, I'm really dreading it, and tomorrow will be just 3 months since he comitted suicide.  I just had the weirdest thing happen as I was sitting here typing and...

Well, it's been awhile since I've been here.  It's been pretty hectic since the 4th of July.  We went to my in laws for the holiday and I fainted!!  So they call 911 and off to the hosp. I go. ...

Well, I went to my regular Dr. Tuesday, and he said I have high blood pressure, 200/108, said I was stroke material!!  So now I'm on Adivan, Paxil and high blood pressure meds and sleeping pills!! ...

It's been 6 weeks since PJ took his life, I'm not so sure that this time thing works.  Sometimes it feels like just yesterday that he did this and at others it feels like forever.  A friend of mine...

It' s so hard to believe that it's only been 5 1/2 weeks since PJ committed suicide, sometimes it feels like yesterday and at others it feels like forever.  I hate this feeling, I have no energy, I...

Why did my poor son have to go through this, he loved this girl with all his heart and tried to raise her kids as his own, only to have her 14 yr. old daughter accuse him of raping her, what a load...

It's been 4 weeks since PJ's suicide, I thought time was supposed to help, and I suppose it is in a way, I don't cry as much.  I'm just so mad at the circumstances that caused him to do such a...

Yesterday was horrible, had a big fight with my husband, and he's threatening to move out, today seemed alittle quieter so far, I just know know what's happening here.  maybe it's his way of...

It's been 25 days now, since PJ died, seems totally impossible, that'll I'll never see my son again, to give him a hug or a kiss, or see that goofy grin of his.  They say God never gives you more...

It's been 20 days now since PJ committed suicide, it's bad enough to lose a child, but this suicide thing is killing me.  I know he must have had his reasons, this isn't something he would have done...

Wow, I can't believe it's been 8 months since I've been on!  Summer is a busy season for me, Thank God, The busier I am, the less time I have to think.  Sometimes thinkings not good.  My Dr. upped...

I seem to have gotten past my previous emotions for the time being, but now I have had another sudden death to deal with, my best friend passed away on the 29th from a massive heart attack.  I'm...

I don't know what's wrong with me today, but I feel like I'm going to explode, I feel like I'm going to hurt someone or myself, not sure which, what I really want to do is go to Worcester and beat...