PJsmom

Hello again friends, I know it's been awhile, I think I've been in a perpetual funk these past 6 months, it's 6 months today that PJ took his life, sometimes I think this part is worse than the day...

I'm so sorry for the previous entry, God, I was in a real funk that day.  it just seems so pointless at times, like it's just not worth the effort to go on.  As much as I love PJ, it wouldn't be...

Life just plain sucks and I'm not sure I want to do this anymore.

You know, I thought as time went on this road would get alittle easier, it's so hard to believe that PJ's been gone for only 4 months.  I look at his pictures everyday, and wonder how he came to...

I just can't believe it.  I've been trying to get the Worcester County DA's office to investigate this girl that acussed my son of raping her, well, you'll never believe it, I finally got a...

One day at a time, sometimes not even that, but trying.

Hello my friends, Well, I made it through PJ's birthday, God it was awful, seems like all I did was cry.  I don't think the grief is going away, I think I'm just learning to hide it better, isn't...

Well, PJ's birthday is in 2 days, I'm really dreading it, and tomorrow will be just 3 months since he comitted suicide.  I just had the weirdest thing happen as I was sitting here typing and...

Well, it's been awhile since I've been here.  It's been pretty hectic since the 4th of July.  We went to my in laws for the holiday and I fainted!!  So they call 911 and off to the hosp. I go. ...

Well, I went to my regular Dr. Tuesday, and he said I have high blood pressure, 200/108, said I was stroke material!!  So now I'm on Adivan, Paxil and high blood pressure meds and sleeping pills!! ...

It's been 6 weeks since PJ took his life, I'm not so sure that this time thing works.  Sometimes it feels like just yesterday that he did this and at others it feels like forever.  A friend of mine...

It' s so hard to believe that it's only been 5 1/2 weeks since PJ committed suicide, sometimes it feels like yesterday and at others it feels like forever.  I hate this feeling, I have no energy, I...

Why did my poor son have to go through this, he loved this girl with all his heart and tried to raise her kids as his own, only to have her 14 yr. old daughter accuse him of raping her, what a load...

It's been 4 weeks since PJ's suicide, I thought time was supposed to help, and I suppose it is in a way, I don't cry as much.  I'm just so mad at the circumstances that caused him to do such a...

Yesterday was horrible, had a big fight with my husband, and he's threatening to move out, today seemed alittle quieter so far, I just know know what's happening here.  maybe it's his way of...