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First, if anyone was exposed to a "snippet" of a journal entry yesterday. I apologize. For some reason, A very long feeling sorry for myself and "wishing" other ways my life would have turned out...

I hope my therapist will be happy. I have finally reached the ANGER stage. It was triggered by the fact that my STBX made a huge fuss over something he normally wouldn't have cared less about. But...

I had a good couple of days in a row. No contact from the ex. Almost no tears, and then it's Friday. And it was our date night. And instead I'm home, "babysitting" my teen son and his...

My "what"is it? STBX? Does that stand for soon to be ex? Anyway, he has ruined everything with this stupid midlife crisis divorce.Our landlords have been nothing but kind to us ever since we moved...

I took Kate to see Dr. Davenport. She needed to talk to someone, and I know she doesn't want to make me feel worse. We both start to cry. She can't understand how her 16 year old brother can just...

I have always gotten the Sunday night blues. Even as a kid, I would feel very melancholy on a Sunday night. Today, my Sunday Night Blues started about 12 PM. A little early to feel so morose all day....

I had to go back to work today after the Christmas break. (I'm a teacher.) And I usually dread Sunday nights anyway. And I haven't felt pain free or thought about anything else for even one minute...

Yesterday was just bad all around. I was glad my son slept at a friend's house. I was just so sad. Unfortunately my daughter who is home from college saw some of it. I just couldn't stop crying. I am...

So here it is. The painful end to 2014. Since the divorce will take me well into 2015 (and that's all if I'm lucky) I am wondering what year, if any, will I begin to feel better? I fear everything....

I am back from my brother's and sister-in-law's. I wanted to stay forever. They keep telling me I can do this. That I've got this. They make me feel brave. I wish I could wave a magic wand and have...

Thank goodness for my brother and his wife and their children. Otherwise I wouldn't have had the strength to make it through. I have that heartsick, stomach sick, all over sick feeling when you just...

It is Christmas Eve. Thank God I am with my brother's family. All I can think about is how he walked out on us. Those 25 years we were happily married mean absolutely nothing to him now. I want to...

Lord, Help me to get through this day. Help me to get through the next several painful and terrifying months. Let my kids be okay, and please, let me be okay, too.

Tonight I am just so sad for my kids. I know they're 16 and 20, but they are hurting so much over this. He doesn't care at all. He is ruining our lives, and he doesn't care. How can he do this when I...

It took me twenty-five years and the abrupt departure of my husband to realize something that must have been in front of me the whole time. My husband is the king of partner breakups.Every job that...