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- Hello All,its been a while since ive posted here. I have been gambling for months now and yesterday i hit my lowest, to where i had only 12 dollars to my name. Looking at me, you would never think I have financial issues. Issues that i dug myself...
- i am not sure what is going on with me these days. I went to gamble again yesterday and even while being up so high, I ended up giving it all back and more..I really hate this physically sick feeling I have right now. It's sickening to see myself go...
- Hey guys, Its been a while since Ive written a post, since I have been using the toll free GA meetings as my way to let out. I had been 6 months gamble free until this last Tuesday, where I ended up at the casino, KNOWLINGLY, after a night out...
- I'm back into this slippery slope of things. Even after losing a lot last Monday, I went back yesterday. Why do I keep going? How do I stop myself? This is killing me inside. I don't trust myself anymore. I need help!!
- So I haven't written anything in a while and was doing really well for the last two months.My last day of bet was December 13th, 2015. But, two nights ago, in a weak moment, I ended up going to the casino after a few too many drinks. Im lost ALOT...
- I went out last night, and even after telling myself that I would not go to the casino, I ended up there last night. I am not sure what is going on with me.I am usually very good about my money, except at night when this other side comes out.I hate...
- So the weekend is here and I've decided to not drink and if I do to limit it two drinks. I intend to be home at a decent time to not allow any triggers or typical environments to set me off. I went out to a buddy's today, and ended up coming home. I...
- I don't know why I can't control myself. I went again last night. Was even up but as usual gave it all back and some. Broke and upset. I can't take it anymore. I need help
- I wrote a post here last week and the week before about how I ended up in the casino. The last two visits allowed me to cover some of my prior blunders, but did not help get rid of the addiction that has taken over me. It seems after a few drinks,...
- So last night I went out for some harmless fun of drinking a few and walking around with some friends. Everything was going well, and there it happened on my way back home. I got the urge and was able to ask my friend to drop me off at the casino...
- So its been three weeks since my last blunder. That was also my last crazy post. Since then I have been to 2 phone GA meetings, which started to get me to have a goal to share with my peers by not going tthru the vicious cycle. I also visited...
- I am feeling stuck by this disease who keeps taking it all from me. Dont have a job, living on unemployment, and racking up bills on the Credit card is the story of my life now. I cant move forward because of what im doing to myself. It seems like...
- So the weekend is coming by and I know people are going to be inviting me to go out and have some drinks and dinner.Im nervous that after a few drinks, ill be back with my urge to gamble.I will have to not drink or limit myself to 1 or 2. Even...
- I wrote a post on Friday in regards an all nighter I had at the casino Thursday night after a month of staying away. But, that didn't stop me to go again on Saturday after some heavy drinking while being out with some friends. I am not sure how to...
- I lost my job at the end of July because to the layoffs in my company. Since then i went on two gambling blunders which put me in a hole.Last night I went to the casino after weeks of staying away and dug another 1.7k hole. I was able to retrieve...