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Status: Why does everybody get to die but me?

Mood: Horrible

About Me

Age: 22

Brain surgery at age of 2, benign tumor on right temporal lobe. Depression since 2011, OCD and Generalized Anxiety since I have memory, Bipolar II, Self harmer since 2012, Suicidal, Some sort of ED since 2013 without a known fucking cause. I describe myself as Agender (it means genderless) Ohh, btw... Excuse my poor English hehe. Please, with all the respect... I'm not religious of any kind. I don't really believe in God. Please avoid the preaching and honestly the "God loves you"s don't exactly help

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Gay & Lesbian Teens

Haters say... (trans)

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 04/10/2017

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When transphobic people say:"you are not male, don't say you are a guy, you were born with a vagina, you didn't go throgh male puberty. You have female reprodctive organs... so don't expect others to call you a "boy" because genetically you are not and biologically... it's wrong!"What if someday you (transphobic) adopt a child, would it be okay if I told you:"you are not his/her mother, don't say you are a mother. You didn't give birth to them, you didn't go through pregnancy. You have...
Joined New Group

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Posted: 04/10/2017

ThisGal joined the group Gay & Lesbian Teens.
We were raised to "be fine"

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 04/07/2017

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If you ask, we are always fine... alwaysNo matter how sick we think we are, in how much pain we are, we are always fine. We tend to understate.My boyfriend is a med student and is worried sick about me right now... Ive been defecating with blood for the past 4 days, I have lost another three pounds (Im underweight in general) this week. I feel cold, Ididnt sleep (had no pills nor money to resock)... I didnt tell my father that last part cuz I didnt wanna bother. I keep giving my bf...
Faded Smile

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 04/02/2017

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I have always had social anxiety, At the doctor, grooming, with teachers, your friends, whatever... They asked anything or talked to me, I couldn't speak. I was terrified. So mother, remember back then when I was younger? Yeah, you used to tell me that I looked stupid when I laughed. They were nervous laughters...Good news, I stopped that long ago.So how do you like it now that I stopped smiling altogether? I don't laugh anymore... at all... better?At least I don't look stupid now, huh?But...
TeenDS: Teen LGBTQ Issues

Discussion Comment

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Posted: 03/28/2017

ThisGal commented on the discussion i'm confused help!!!!.
TeenDS: Teen LGBTQ Issues

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Posted: 03/28/2017

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Joined New Group

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Posted: 03/28/2017

ThisGal joined the group TeenDS: Teen LGBTQ Issues.
Stupid Rituals for the Dead

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 03/28/2017

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Am I the only One who finds the whole ceremony when someone dies stupid?Mass, a whole ritual to burry a corpse in the ground, flowers, prayer, strict dress code, moment of silence… Bullshit When I die just wrap my corpse in newspaper and throw it somewhere. Use yellow, black, flowerpatterns, 666 stamp, white, pink, purple, Batman, Satan… I’m dead, I don’t give a fuck I don't care if you fucking party the very next day or ten minutes after I go, if you go to a strip club. Do...
This is not a movie

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 12/02/2016

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Not every mental illness is about:Bathtubs filled up with blood Punching the wall Being strapped down on a metal bedStraightjackets Going around cursing people Smashing a mirror in the ground Screaming with no reason in the middle of the street Windows with iron bars Being put to sleep with tranquilizers and a syringe  Stalking pleople  Setting things on fire Being haunted by shadows Predicting death and tragedies Being locked up in a nuthouse and trying To escape I hate...
Breaking the fuck down

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 11/12/2016

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10 minutes ago I was literally lying on the bathroom floor in fetal position, hugging my knees tight and crying my eyes off. Breaking down with my blades in my hand.Gave myself 6 small cuts, rather superficial, in my forearm... But since we are apparently playing volleyball tomorrow I couldn't make them too noticeable... So, my thighs paid the price: 12 new scars, my first real scars in there... I guess I'm wearing sweatpants tomorrow.My bf came to visit this weekend, I saw him today for just a...
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Randomly worried to tears about my dog

Posted by: ThisGal

Last Reply: silverlight 10/31/2016

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I'm scared to tears... I just got this strong weird feeling that my dog is gonna die tonight. I have him right here, I wanted him to sleep in my bed with me tonight. He is 14 years old. 14 years by my side. He scratches the door desperately when I'm on a breakdown and then licks my scars. I love him, please don't go yet
Hug

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Posted: 10/19/2016

ThisGal sent a hug to Darkprince

I hope I was Of help, also hope you feel better soon. Thank you Too for the hug and you reply
Missing a safe spot

Posted by: ThisGal

Posted: 10/19/2016

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I'm not feeling well... Classes are wearing me out, I'm Too tired But sometimes I can't even sleep. But I still feel like I don't wanna go back "home". I feel bad... Sad knowing That I'm returning To an empty house. And a nerve wrecking family.We just moved in and the house is great, indeed.But the process is Too overwhelming due To past traumas, the house is still an empty spot... Almost no furniture, the things we have are mostly broken (freezer, refrigerator, washing machine, car, no WiFi,...
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Posted: 10/19/2016

ThisGal commented on Darkprince's journal Body Modification?

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