Missing a safe spot

I'm not feeling well... Classes are wearing me out, I'm Too tired But sometimes I can't even sleep. But I still feel like I don't wanna go back "home". I feel bad... Sad knowing That I'm returning To an empty house. And a nerve wrecking family.

We just moved in and the house is great, indeed.

But the process is Too overwhelming due To past traumas, the house is still an empty spot... Almost no furniture, the things we have are mostly broken (freezer, refrigerator, washing machine, car, no WiFi, freezing showers) and many things missing. Still no money to take care Of this.

Everybody is stressed out, mad At each other here. Family environment is way Too tense. And I don't feel like I belong here.

I get my meds like for 1-3 days mostly At a time, we can't afford To buy more. I want an appt with my shrink But I don't want To demand It while We are like this.

College is exhausting, But "home" is Too overwhelming, and I'm feeling more like a burden around here than anything.

Never really trusted Or felt Too close To my family anyways But still... I dunno.

This is all Too sadenning (is this spelled like That? Lol)

Way Too uncomfortable, no sense Of belonging whatsoever.