ThisGal
Status: Why does everybody get to die but me?
Mood:
Horrible
- When transphobic people say:"you are not male, don't say you are a guy, you were born with a vagina, you didn't go throgh male puberty. You have female reprodctive organs... so don't expect others to call you a "boy" because genetically you are not...
- I'm scared to tears... I just got this strong weird feeling that my dog is gonna die tonight. I have him right here, I wanted him to sleep in my bed with me tonight. He is 14 years old. 14 years by my side. He scratches the door desperately when I'm...
- I tend to cut everytime I get a mental breakdown.But on Sunday I had another crisis at 2am... Gave myself 7 new scars; then woke up in the morning feeling like shit so uhmm... I was alone in the house, and I used a baseball bat to bruise the right...
- If you read a discussion I posted about 1-2 years ago you might remember some struggles I listed while I was taking Fluoxetine (Prozac).It was called "Unconscious for a second? Fluoxetine? Anyone else?" http://www.mdjunction.com/...
- Sometimes I find myself zoning out... Just staring At nothing in particular But straight forward to a specific Spot At the same time, and I get lost... No thoughts, no blinking, not a single move. I just stay there standing up Or sitting like That...
- My family an I are moving out of this house, and I like a lot the new one but... Now that I see things being moved away from here I'm starting to feel overwhelmed. I'm trying not to relate this to past feelings from traumatic experiences.So far I...
- Does anybody else have a random but specific and persistent feeling that something will happen in a determined moment or circumstance of their lifes?For some reason, for the las couple of years I have been suspicious that I will die at age of 27......
- The truth is I need help, no matter what I say or if I want the help or to admit I need it. Honestly, I'm getting worse.I have hit my head again with a compact glass bottle (didnt break But I gave myself a bruise).Two days ago I "attempted a suicide...
- I'm in the middle of a huge binge... I'm mostly anorexic purging type but have ocassional binges.Right now I have eaten my dinner... Rice and beans with chease and butter, a bowl of ice cream with Oreo and Dulce de Leche, some candy, and 2 big...
- For me, the idea of suicide gets triggered randomly to the point where the most trivial objects cause very very graphic and disturbing thoughts.I get triggered everytime I go out for a night walk, during every single car ride, at college, when...
- My psychologist and psychiatrist are both prretty aware that I wan't to die... And in an attempt to "get rid of my negative thoughts" my psychologist asked me during the last appointment: "Why wanting to die if we don't know what lies ahead?"Here is...
- I started taking Fluoxetine this week (in my country the brand name is Dominium, not Proza). I alternate it with my previous med (Sertraline) so I start slowly with the new one.Anyways, I've been feeling dizzy everytime I stand up from my bed or...
- Pills to sleep...Pills to get me out of bed...Pills to be able to eat more, or just to eat at all...But not eat too much...While others "may or may not" cause anorexia.Pills that won't let me kill myself,but they killed my soul already.Pills so I'm...
- I know this sounds bad but it's true...I'm having the constant impulse and desire to just giving up in my attempts to get better and dropping everything... Therapy, medication, psychiatrist, trying to stay free from self-injury, etc.See, I started...
- I had two episodes of extreme anxiety today: one during classes in the morning, because of a mean teacher (long story); and the other one before and during my volleyball training. So yeah, I was nervous, anxious, scared and stressed out most of the...