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- Reading through the posts I see many new names and some old familiar names here. I have not checked in for awhile but thought tonight would be a good opportunoty.For those new and those older who slightly remember me, my name is John and I lost my...
- 1 single safe zone. That is here and guess what someone trampled it with spam. I got a direct messageFrom:Charl1Sent:Sep 15Subject:From The Desk of: Dr Charles Holliday Jr..From The Desk of: Dr Charles Holliday Jr.. Bank of America.Branch Offices...
- First let me say Hello and welcome (though that sounds wrong) to our ever growing group of widowhood. If you look to your left and right you will see a widow or widower on this site. I have been here since January through chats with many (back when...
- It is June and I am still here woot!!!! My world did not collapse last month with everything that went on. We survived Mothers Day, my daughters 15th birthday, the 4 month anniversary of Meredith's death and our oldest graduating high school.The sun...
- I say "my" like all of a sudden I am laying for the opposite team. Nope still a guy, thankfully lol. Ok so why do I say "my" first Mother's Day? I have all these ladies who are friends on Facebook and ladies from my church who all wished me Happy...
- Well today I purchased all new plates for the kitchen. We were down to only 4 of the plates Meredith had bought 10 years ago and one of them broke last night so had to buy new ones. I have cleaned out the kitchen cabinets and purchased all new...
- Who am I?Can I conceal myself for evermore?Pretend I'm not the man I was before?These lines are not just lyrics to a song. Can any one of us say that we have not asked ourselves these questions? What in our life has changed us to something else and...
- Last night I was struggling real hard with the thought of saying my final goodbye to Meredith by ordering her headstone. At work today I prayed all day for some sort of real sign that going through with this was not my goodbye but a tribute to her...
- I met Meredith when I was working third shift at a Kroger in Bourbonnais IL while I was going to Olivet Nazarene University for my ministry degree. We met when her friends had taken her out drinking and they came in my store goofing around. She kept...
- Happy early morning to all my fellow widowers and widows. I know I sound peppy and positive; truth be told its still me trying to be the old me through the dark till the light shines again.I am quickly approaching the end of month 3 on my own now...
- Well here I sit an emotional wreck tonight. I finally came to the wall that you all knew I would hit and you even tried to warn me. Nope I thought I was stronger and that things were going good and that I had control of this stupid thing called...
- We all have our ways of coping and for me it has been days and nights of no sleep turning to nights of sleep finally. As I have stated before the kids and II have to our point of peace now if that is acceptance or any other stage of grief who really...
- It is hard to think that tomorrow (March 24th) will be two months since Meredith passed away. I have had many new experiences in my life that I never thought I would experience but I am still here. My boss talked to me the other day candidly about...
- How is everyone doing today?It feels odd to me to know that I am still moving, still feeling, still living without Meredith here. I have learned much about myself and our kids in the nearly 2 months she has been gone.Life is back to it's everyday...
- I got up today and just did not want to do anything. I knew I would eventually start feeling some form of depression. My mom sways call the doctor get meds and get treated. I don't think I am going to do that for now. I know I was depressed, I got...