Mrs2014

So we had a friend around for dinner last night, a guy we haven't seen for ages. Anyway, we were in the middle of recounting the whole cancer story to him and I just broke down...if that wasn't bad...

So, I finished the book I was reading...the one where the sister has infertility issues throughout it. Of course she ends up pregnant and having a baby. How could it possibly end any other way?I...

Just have to write this right away...so just before I was about to head into town for the transfer, my parents in law cam over to look after my baby. (hugely lucky to have them close by!) Anyway,...

Can't believe it is here again so soon. Am going into this one with mixed emotions.. Am going to try and be super positive and thankful that it worked once. This will be a great experiment in human...

So its my transfer day tomorrow. I have never felt more enormous in my life. I am so meh about tomorrow..I don't know, maybe its the book I am reading at the moment that is on my mind...the character...

Am just so blah at the moment. I feel like a bloated whale, have started the progesterone pessaries which contribute to my shitty mindset and enormous waistline.I am reading a book at the moment...

So after another trying night (or should I say morning) with our baby, I have been accused of being intolerant of our child...in other words...a bad mother.Which got me thinking, do I really want a...

So I am in a bit of a better headspace. Although, I went to the gym this morning and my gym instructor (in front of the whole class!) asked me if I was having another baby soon. Ugh! This from the...

I think I have actually reached the end of my tether. I really didn't see this coming, but it has hot me out of the blue. I was having yet another sleepless night when I just realised that enough is...

So one of the girls in my mother's group has just announced she is pregnant again. I felt sick to my stomach with jealousy. I know that is so ungracious of me...especially when I already have a baby....

Got my dates for the next cycle. Scan next Monday, blood test next Thursday, Start progesterone Friday then transfer the Tuesday after that. Haven't had the PEtCT scan yet as the machine that makes...

Feeling more human today. Thanks to a good night's sleep (finally!). I am having a PETCT tomorrow. Most embarrassing thing will be having my co-workers recording my weight when I am currently...

So today is  day one of my cycle and boy do I know it. Literally doubling over with cramping and don't even want to begin with how horrendously heavy things are. Seriously almost passed out in the...

So I finally got the call this afternoon to tell me that my beta had dropped to 2. So this cycle is officially a failed cycle. I thought that after everything I have been through over the last few...

Completely equivocal result which basically means that it will be a negative result but we have to wait another few days for complete confirmation.I am not as upset as I should be though because my...