Better Headspace

So I am in a bit of a better headspace. Although, I went to the gym this morning and my gym instructor (in front of the whole class!) asked me if I was having another baby soon. Ugh! This from the lady who is only four years older than me and already a grandmother. (She herself had 12 children...its a cultural thing over here)..like its that easy...just decide you want to be pregnant have some sex and boom, there you go..no complications, no difficulties...nothing.
It made me pretty mad. Still does. 
My husband and I talked seriously about giving up after this cycle. I am not even sure that this cycle will go ahead as I have had some spotting over the last day or two. My lining looks good but am not convinced we will go ahead as I have never had spotting before a transfer before.
Anyway, if this is really the end of the line, when do I stop being bitter and jealous of everyone else who has more than one baby and can just simply get pregnant just like that?
Ok so maybe the title of this entry is wrong....maybe instead of just being sad, now I am mad. Anger is better than sadness though right?? At least I feel like I have some more control...