these bloody hormones!!!!

So we had a friend around for dinner last night, a guy we haven't seen for ages. Anyway, we were in the middle of recounting the whole cancer story to him and I just broke down...if that wasn't bad enough, my husband asked about his mother and what type of cancer she had dies from...yup you guessed it..Melanoma...when my friend was 12. I just fell to bits. 
I honestly thought when I got the all clear that I would move on pretty quickly but I keep dwelling on it. I am not otrying to be negative about  it all, just merey observing.
So, onto other things, ummm, I didn't get to go to the gym yesterday as I am full of cold so instead, I went for a very long (2hour) walk...which was lovely because the weather was beautiful.
I am dog tired so am optimistic that is a good sign as I am now 3 days post transfer. It could also be because I am sick but I am trying to remain positive! We have a week off nxt week as a "holiday" before I go back to work..I am really nervous about it but am sure that I will be ok.
Alright, that is me today : )