Grocery store

I made it all the way through the grocery store today. John said he was proud of me. We had to go stock up because of the winter storm warning that's out for this weekend.  It actually wasn't too crowded. When I saw Stephanie today I told her I can't seem to make decisions right now and going to the store was one of them.  I can either not go, go and use one of those wheelchair carts or go and if I get lightheaded stop and sit down at the front and wait for John to finish. She said or you could go and manage just fine. I never think of that option right now. I managed to get through it. I had to stop once or twice and drink some water but I made it.
Of course when I accomplishment something these days I chalk it up to hypomania setting in. It's hard to tell. Maybe I should just give myself credit for being able to go to physical therapy, my t doc and the grocery store in the same day.  The physical therapist asked me if he thought physical therapy was helping my neck. I really didn't know how to answer that. I mean I almost feel like it's making it worse.
 
My anxiety is still off the charts. I explained to Stephanie that it's worse when my body is quiet or silent. I'm use to either having a headache,my acid reflux making noises, my neck cracking or hurting, or my palpitations so when my body's not doing anything I freak out. to compensate for the quietness I start freaking out and crack my knuckles or dig my nails into my arms. I hate it. It's such an awful feeling. She gave me a stone and showed me a relaxation technique and wants me to try guided imagery. I'll give it a try but I'm not hopeful it will work.