Same old crap
I've been up and down the past few days both physically and mentally. I had my nerve testing done and they came back negative. I think the next step is to be referred to a rheumatologist. I hope it's not fibromyalgia. I don't want another illness with no real cure or no specific diagnosis. My legs ache so bad right now. I just took some Advil.
I went to my new dermatologist today because my old one doesn't take Caresource. She was nice. I like her but she wants to biopsy 6 spots on me. Wtf. When I went to mine 6 months ago she didn't see anything suspect. She did one today but insurance only covers one a visit so I have to go back 5 more times. 5 more appointments mom has to drive me too. Their next opening wasn't until sept 16th but that's my bankrupcty hearing so I had to wait until Sept 28th since Mom will in DC the week in between. This is something I definitely want to be over with. I don't want melanoma again. Mom asked me if I was concerned and I said I wasn't sure. I mean I have so many health issues it won't surprise me if I have skin cancer again.
I felt some what ok yesterday but today this evening I felt off again. We took the puppy for a walk tonight and I thought since it was mid to upper 70's out I'd be fine. The sun was beating down on me still. I felt like I was going to pass out sitting on the couch after we got home. I chugged water and drank Gatorade. My heart rate and BP were fine when I checked them. I just can't be outside in the heat at all I guess.
I really wish I knew what triggered me to feel like shit. The other day we had Lasagna and shortly after I ate it my stomach was torn up. It was not pretty. John thinks I ate too much cheese that day. We both think I'm lactose intolerant even though I didn't test postive for it. John thinks I need to cut out all dairy and sugar. The thing is they've tested my glucose plenty of times and it's always been fine. I don't know why sugar makes me so nauseous. It never use too.
Im hoping I get some sleep tonight. John has to leave for work at 6:15 which sucks. I hate being alone that early. But when he starts second shift I'm going to hate being here in the evenings. Thankfully I have the puppy now. But still I wish he could work like 11am to 7pm. I sound like I'm whining. I just want to feel good.
I went to my new dermatologist today because my old one doesn't take Caresource. She was nice. I like her but she wants to biopsy 6 spots on me. Wtf. When I went to mine 6 months ago she didn't see anything suspect. She did one today but insurance only covers one a visit so I have to go back 5 more times. 5 more appointments mom has to drive me too. Their next opening wasn't until sept 16th but that's my bankrupcty hearing so I had to wait until Sept 28th since Mom will in DC the week in between. This is something I definitely want to be over with. I don't want melanoma again. Mom asked me if I was concerned and I said I wasn't sure. I mean I have so many health issues it won't surprise me if I have skin cancer again.
I felt some what ok yesterday but today this evening I felt off again. We took the puppy for a walk tonight and I thought since it was mid to upper 70's out I'd be fine. The sun was beating down on me still. I felt like I was going to pass out sitting on the couch after we got home. I chugged water and drank Gatorade. My heart rate and BP were fine when I checked them. I just can't be outside in the heat at all I guess.
I really wish I knew what triggered me to feel like shit. The other day we had Lasagna and shortly after I ate it my stomach was torn up. It was not pretty. John thinks I ate too much cheese that day. We both think I'm lactose intolerant even though I didn't test postive for it. John thinks I need to cut out all dairy and sugar. The thing is they've tested my glucose plenty of times and it's always been fine. I don't know why sugar makes me so nauseous. It never use too.
Im hoping I get some sleep tonight. John has to leave for work at 6:15 which sucks. I hate being alone that early. But when he starts second shift I'm going to hate being here in the evenings. Thankfully I have the puppy now. But still I wish he could work like 11am to 7pm. I sound like I'm whining. I just want to feel good.
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First off, you don\'t sound like your whining. You sound like you\'re in pain and you venting. Which is WHY you\'re HERE! You\'ve got so many health issues to deal with - I have two (endometriosis and interstitial cystitis - IC) and that\'s a LOT for me! My therapist and I were just talking about identifying triggers and then identifying them AS WHAT IS triggering. Does that make sense? Like, I saw someone and it triggered my thoughts about persecution. But I didn\'t want to get wrapped up in it and I was on my way to see my T so I just said \"TRIGGER!\" and kept going. It kind of worked. At least for a little while. Sugar and Milk. Sounds like you might have some kind of digestive disorder. Have you been tested for Chron\"s (sp?) disease? Those are both irritants. I have to follow a rigid diet for my IC but I cheat and eat a LOT of cheese. It irritates my bladder to no end but I keep doing it. I LOVE cheese. Anyhoo -- I hope you fair well with the biopsies. And I\'m SOOOOO happy for you that you have a puppy - Puppy Kisses are the Best! I know you want to feel good - we all do - and I hope you do soon, too. (((big hugs))) xoxo
I hope everything comes out fine with your biopsies but it has to be nerve-wracking on top of everything else. Good luck with your bankruptcy hearing. Maybe it will take a lot of stress off of you. I know it did me although I was sad about not being able to have credit until 2016 (this was seven or eight years ago that I filed). You will be surprised how much comfort and therapy you will get from that pup!! BIG HUGS!!