Awful Anxiety
My anxiety is off the charts again. I don't really understand why. I think it's my POTS flaring up. I had another episode yesterday. John came and sat by me and had me chug a water. I feel like I'm regressing big time. I haven't felt right since almost fainting at physical therapy last week. I'm afraid of everything again. I don't want to do my exercise bike. I don't want to go for walks or anything. My movies were due back to the library today and my mom asked me if I wanted to get out of the house and I said no. I'll just pay the late fees. I think it's like a dime a day anyway.
John wants me to try and come to bed earlier than 3am and I tried last night to go to sleep at 1:30 but it took me forever to go to sleep. I didn't get out of bed until 1pm. I was doing so much better with that also. I was sleeping from 1am to 11am which made me feel better. Last night my mind would not turn off at all. I want to know why I'm regressing. I can't pin point it. I either feel like crying all the time or I'm nervous. I hope my p doc can help me tomorrow. I feel awful. My hot flashes are really bad again also. I'm ready for meds for everything. My life is pretty unbearable right now. I live in fear everyday and I'm so sick of it.
John wants me to try and come to bed earlier than 3am and I tried last night to go to sleep at 1:30 but it took me forever to go to sleep. I didn't get out of bed until 1pm. I was doing so much better with that also. I was sleeping from 1am to 11am which made me feel better. Last night my mind would not turn off at all. I want to know why I'm regressing. I can't pin point it. I either feel like crying all the time or I'm nervous. I hope my p doc can help me tomorrow. I feel awful. My hot flashes are really bad again also. I'm ready for meds for everything. My life is pretty unbearable right now. I live in fear everyday and I'm so sick of it.
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Sorry to see that red face....sounds like you have been through it lately and backing up and not leaving the house sounds healing. It\'s trite to say I hope this passes and you feel better...but I mean it!
(((HUGS REDS))) Hot flashes alone are horrible for not letting you sleep and I know when I had them my anxiety would go sky high too not to mention all the other stuff you\'re dealing with.
I\'m sorry you\'re feeling so awful! It\'s been awhile now that you\'ve been having problems with POTS -- are you seeing someone who specializes in POTS? I hope sleep, going out and feeling calm are on the horizon! Big hugs! :)
I hope your pdoc can help...and maybe he has an explanation for you\'re recurring bouts of anxiety. You\'re going through so much right now. Not knowing why symptoms happen and to have them pop up at random it seems, well, I imagine that\'s frightening and frustrating. Big hugs sweetie.