Horrible, right back to the gutter and depression, major this time.  My daughter and her boyfriend are moving in and she sparked a huge argument last night, my wife blames me for everything right now that is wrong and is possibly seeing a lawyer today to have me thrown out of the house.  I am considering suicide again, definately thinking of overdose of sleeping pills to be off of this rotten planet.  I am worse than depressed now.  The red face does not indicate how low I feel these days.  I am a total failure and wish I had died in the Trade Center, would have been easier.  I am sorry to have lived.  I am sorry to have been born at all.  My parents could have spared me trouble by avoiding me.