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I'm still here. Going strong. Have faith. Get to GA. Love my life. Debit free.  Paid my daughters college. So many thoughts. I was so messed up. So sad. So lost. It's possible. So happy. I'm Stacey...

Placed my last bet 11/4/2018GA saved my life - I just reread my journal entries.....wow sad, but there is hope - I did it one day at a time, life is amazing, money is there, peace of mind and life is...

update, august 9, wow, last slot bet 4/10i think about my escape only thru flashbacks, it comes, i feel it, i let it play in my head, i move past it, over and overeven though i have tried to quit - i...

update, 4/10 since my last best, i dont have actual cravings, but i do have flashbacks, and some sort of longing to do something - but its not gambling, cause i allow myself to think about the casino...

so i started here in june of 2014, and i came here out of desperation to quit, i didnt quit, BUT I ADMITTED THAT I HAD TO QUIT..... jeez, imagine the money i'd have for the two yearsive beat myself...

Joel Osteen MinistriesYesterday at 10:06amDont settle for things that are holding you back, the addiction, compromising, taking the easy way out. Be a difference maker. Draw that line in the sand and...

During one of the toughest decades of my life I sensed the Lord saying 'trust Me' over and over and over again. And I did, even when the enemy wanted me to worry and basically freak out. Lean on the...

instead of posting, i respond to those who need help, i dont journal alot anymore, i dont think - NO OFFENSE, anyone on here diverted me ever from gambling, its the truth, i read/write/listen/and...

i can say with 100% certainty i have switches that can be permanently shut off, i have done it with cigarettes, wine, casino (1), not casino (2) we'll get to that in a minute, abusive bf - hardest...

doing my best to stay busy, i have not been perfect and that's ok, i'm learning i plant flowers, and rake leaves and mow lawns and water the outside, and work and be a good momhad a wonderful...

think of gambling, want to gamble, go and gamblethink of gambling, dont want to, go anywaydont think of gambling, dont gambledont think, force myself to think -  gambleonly gamble comp -...

every day - every day is a learning experience with this disease i have had this figured out a million times, and then i realize i no nothing, and i have to humble myself to the reduction of an...

i remember happy times in the beginning, cheering and clapping and getting all excited about winning or a free spin, now the place is like Dead Walking staring, staring, slamming fingers on buttons,...

in my darkest days, I used to look at people who i knew had money, and just went about their lives, no need to spend it, it never "burned" a hole in their pockets,they would waste the day away doing...

what i have learned since i stopped gambling is that the peace is just as strong as the urges, but the peace last longernext on my agenda is slowing down, the drinking, the trying to feel numb, i...