may flowers
doing my best to stay busy, i have not been perfect and that's ok, i'm learning
i plant flowers, and rake leaves and mow lawns and water the outside, and work and be a good mom
had a wonderful mothers day, im truly blessed, i have no idea why i feel the need to self destruct, maybe i miss being with someone, im alone alot, i have friends and much to do, but no companion
im actually still reeling over my last relationship, my god it was 3 years ago, the first year or so was major healing and just the need to be left alone, the last year was getting my shit together, which by the grace of god i did
i did, i got a 2nd chance, and im trying hard not to screw it up, why does it pull so hard? cause thats what addiction do the PULL, so you can either lean in or pull back hard, its exhausting.
i plant flowers, and rake leaves and mow lawns and water the outside, and work and be a good mom
had a wonderful mothers day, im truly blessed, i have no idea why i feel the need to self destruct, maybe i miss being with someone, im alone alot, i have friends and much to do, but no companion
im actually still reeling over my last relationship, my god it was 3 years ago, the first year or so was major healing and just the need to be left alone, the last year was getting my shit together, which by the grace of god i did
i did, i got a 2nd chance, and im trying hard not to screw it up, why does it pull so hard? cause thats what addiction do the PULL, so you can either lean in or pull back hard, its exhausting.
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Hi
Read your post and just want to say I feel inspired by what you said .I am new to recovery and already feel the pulling and feel
Totally exhausted .
Brian
wow thanks, that was 3 years ago, and I'm still here, not perfect ..but better thanwhere i used to be, there is so much to life, i see that now, it really is minute to minute sometimes....but we are better off w/o it - and for what its worth, it does change you for better, money comes and goes, cherish the rest....