june 9

update, 4/10 since my last best, i dont have actual cravings, but i do have flashbacks, and some sort of longing to do something - but its not gambling, cause i allow myself to think about the casino and the bet and it doesnt "do it" for me like i rememeber, perhaps the addiction is just tapering off / getting weaker, or im getting stronger, i know this is a HIDEOUS disesase and its just a matter of time, im in a good place for once
for those who believe you cant, im hear to prove you can, the mind heals and things do change, i didnt believe it either, cause my brain was so F789cked up that i couldnt think/see straight
i can now, and its not due to 40 days of no gambling, its from years of relapses and learning HOW to quit and more importantly staying quit and finding myself again in this storm
i learned the hard way - ten years of on/off gambling - powerful but doable