the switch vs will power
i can say with 100% certainty i have switches that can be permanently shut off, i have done it with cigarettes, wine, casino (1), not casino (2) we'll get to that in a minute, abusive bf - hardest switch ever next to gambling
i've changed my mind and my habits and when mind is set, i can dedicate myself to if i say 15 lbs i will lose, i do it - without a flinch
i know eventually the switch will be shut on all casinos - i count on it
my main (C) was close by, i have disgusted myself beyond comprehension with that place, and i refuse to drive that drive pull in that lot and walk up the escalator, if i had to i would be prob have the worse panic attack of my life, i LOATHE it with all my being
but i dont loathe gambling in a whole yet, its taking longer to figure out but its getting there, i cant explain it - maybe the switch is the bottom
i remember all the reasons i quit the above mentioned, and it was at the lowest point and it could not and would not no matter how much i tried get better, i knew i was defeated and i didnt want to be harmed anymore and so it was easy.....done, quit, walk away, stop, never ever have to conteplate or go back on my word - but it took HELL to get there
why i was chosen i don't know to go thru this, but i read this the other day "be open, there are bigger things at work than you aware of"
and i truly believe by the grace i god i go, he's going to answer the call one of these days
i've changed my mind and my habits and when mind is set, i can dedicate myself to if i say 15 lbs i will lose, i do it - without a flinch
i know eventually the switch will be shut on all casinos - i count on it
my main (C) was close by, i have disgusted myself beyond comprehension with that place, and i refuse to drive that drive pull in that lot and walk up the escalator, if i had to i would be prob have the worse panic attack of my life, i LOATHE it with all my being
but i dont loathe gambling in a whole yet, its taking longer to figure out but its getting there, i cant explain it - maybe the switch is the bottom
i remember all the reasons i quit the above mentioned, and it was at the lowest point and it could not and would not no matter how much i tried get better, i knew i was defeated and i didnt want to be harmed anymore and so it was easy.....done, quit, walk away, stop, never ever have to conteplate or go back on my word - but it took HELL to get there
why i was chosen i don't know to go thru this, but i read this the other day "be open, there are bigger things at work than you aware of"
and i truly believe by the grace i god i go, he's going to answer the call one of these days
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