gambling rationale

think of gambling, want to gamble, go and gamble
think of gambling, dont want to, go anyway
dont think of gambling, dont gamble
dont think, force myself to think -  gamble
only gamble comp - surprisingly successful with that (hurts less the next day, still hurts)
want to gamble and dont
want to gamble and go
dont want to gamble but know i should to get it out of the way and avoid when i really want to go, the itch will be gone by then
just rambling, my mind/my head over and over and over