never thought id do this again

ok, here i go again, just took my son to work so i can write in journal. this has to have been one of the longest weeks of my life. it happend again today. tried to take a nap after getting up at 6:30 am to stand in line at the food pantry from hell i just today realized how poor we are now.  now i messed up this entry cause i have this funny writing. anyway, tried to take a nap. what a joke. started thinking about everything ive been threw this week, and is not likely to get better anytime soon, then before i kneew it, full blown panic attack. not even going to try to sleep. have terrible night and day terrors. someone help, ive realy lost it now. im too old for this.