still playing austridge, fri jan 6,2012 9.04 p.m.

well, im still not allowing my brain to wrap around the prob w/ son. im still so very angry. im so fucked and so is he. so angry. tried to call landlord today but he didnt call back. my rent is late now and i should have took it up first thing like allways. need to go there tommorow and drop in box, dont want to get in trouble. i dont think i will. im allways on time and i might have an credit still. so im just jotting down a few things tonight to get off my mind. havnt told b.f. or alot of myh family yet about son. its just going to be so bad. he needs a job yesterday. i still dont know what hei is not telling me. something obviously. i still want to slap him so hard. what is the daal. he ahd all that time and didnt register for next simester. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant even go still and i know its nerves. i dont know what to do. i knneed to go home, but i dont think we will make it now. its just so fucked i dont even have speach about it i am w./out speach. ok, well, cant think much longer about this. ok, cleaned room pretty good tonight. drinking decaf at night. still on lasics and laxsitives,  again AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, namaste