gimmestrength2008

Well, ive been so negative for so long, im going to have to think more positive or try to. ok here i go. i am so thankfull for both of my sons, even the one living offf of me. i am thankfull to have...

well, sson is comming andi in town horray wanted to write this going to stay over at aunts place on her couch. more later like sat and  will know more and have good stories about n his visit. 

Well, its a new month and i'm already screwed as ussual. I am so anxious and shakky its hard to even type this. Maintenece came in today and my apt is so dirty, it rained all day, i'm anxious about...

well, lets see. i am so messed up i cant even get my thoughts together. i am practicly a shut in now. apt is a big mess as am i. on so much meds that all i want to do is sleep. so i am a weak person,...

OK now i can say a very fast journal. i'm hungry so i'm going to go make something, so broke its sccarryoh wellthats about all i  got wrote out a long entry and it just dissapeared si not doing that...

Well, woke up at 5 am again, but now i can make a journal. So much has happened sence i was last on here. I was very sick for over a yr now i am physicly better but not mentally. That has gotten...

Well, its been a really long time sence ive been on here, forgot password, glad they saved all my stuff. I hope some of my friends are still on here or want to talk

Well, finnally took my son to get his false teeth today. HARAYYYYY It has been over a yr we have been on this and today was the big day, now we are in the gagging getting used to them.l To me that...

Well i haven't journaled for a few day's, not feeling well. Sick to my stomack, so cranky, and generally sick. I'm hoping it's the withdrawl's and i'm not getting sick. I knew this was going to be...

OK this is just an update. didn't journal yesterday, bad mood, cramky. did shower up and i finally got out of thed apt last night for cig'[s and food. It was warmish but i was still freezing of...

Well, this is day 3 on the detox/weening so far so good, woke up stupid early again. Like i said yesterday, i had nowere to go or nothing magor that gave me bad anxiaty yet, just had a cup of joe,...

Well, day 2 is almost over, so far so good but i havn't had any stresser's yet, that's when i know something. Slept again most of the day and took my new med it doesn't do much that i can tell. Going...

Well, i ade it threw day one. Still slept most of day. Took 12.5 mg instead of the 25 mg's then i took my new med, didn't seem to do anything much but it's just the first day. Then took my reg 50...

OK the name of the med is hydroxazen hcl. The side effect's are mild drowsiness and dry mouth. Took the first one this afternoon, didn't feel much it'sd a very low dose. So far so good even though...

OK the day is here, it's time to start with the weening off the seriquil, Waiting for the other med thaat i cant remember the name of it, will journal after the delivery about ther mane of it. Just...