OK now what? Sat Dec 29,2018

OK so another day in this month. Things are weird with me. I am having trouble just making this entry. as i type this my mind is wondering alot about so many thing's. My son mostly i guess and eververything to do with my money or lack of money, all that stuff thats constantly going threw my mind. This makes little to no sence i know. Iv'e gained weight and i have deppresion because of it. b.f. never gain's or loses weight, so it's extra hard on me. I am going out there for the week of New Year. I feel as if i am in a fog for a while now. I know it's all the med's. I am sleeping ALOT and i know that's bad for evverything Apt is a wreck and i don't seem to care much but i realy do. This is my ramlblings, just some of the things that i feel. Ive gone down the rabbit hole. OK some thing positive. Let me see... OK i am in pretty good phyiscal health bvy this i mean not high colesterol or blood pressure diabitise, etc, just the over powering anxiaty/deppresion. It's all the other stuff thaat is hurthing me.  OK going to go get something to eat and take a nap. ha. thats all i got for now.......