alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
Mood:
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still anxietyi tryed to shake it offby doing actionsi thought if i do everything that there is to do i will feel freeso i didi did all of them that i could ...the worste onesbut each one didnt leave...
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anxietyworriedeverything from death to money and loveanxiety
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Some deep down fearsfear of this life surface tonightage and death lots of emotional strings tugingfeelings of love are so far away
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work load is hardi really do push myselfworn out again no time for love or romance at this paceno time for anythingunless i list a lot tomorrow i wont hit a new targetdont think i will now to worn...
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getting drinking in hand.today pains like the old dayspains while shopping that stopped me walking around.working very hard i seem to have no time for anythingif i did have a reall girlfriend she...
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off to bed in a momentbit by bit im trying to get myself on to a better routinei still drank more than i should.i also had half a take away mealin the mornings i thinkmust cut drinking right down and...
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i feel quiet todaybut not such a bad quietjust quieti few things happened over the last few days but i wont type it out.i cant be bothered.had a bit of a nightmare last nightthink it was something...
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today i spent repairing electronicson a smashed drum unitit was totally screwed took 6 hours of patching link cableson the cuircitboard but i got it running againits for a local shop that found out...
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mind over emotions---today im snapping at moment from the pastsituations i was made to feel akward by people i dint likebut the thoughts are digging at meand i tell them to fuck offthe thing i should...
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got a message from the usa girl with the millionare boyfriendsaying i have to make things happen but he paid her plane tickets first classpayed for her house rentpaid for hotels at $550 a nightput...
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got a message from the usa girl with the millionare boyfriendsaying i have to make things happen but he paid her plane tickets first classpayed for her house rentpaid for hotels at $550 a nightput...
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living without an ancorei feel troubled ,,upsetlast night i dreat a few thingsmy turkish ex was back and i opened up my emotions to what they werebut she was not a permanet thingit was a dream of...
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i feel like the guy who turns up on a date witha flowerand the other guy turned up with roses and a horse drawncrystal craige like a disany film
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ex usa date who ran off with the pop stargot put on band pay roll and will be worth $400.000by next yearplus her boyfriend is worth millions of $my other ex ran off and be came a TV starin the middle...
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i used to type a lotand now im very basicnow to an outsider i seem like a moronbut really i dont caream i lot better or a lot worseor just past caringi think its the last one
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