got a message from the usa girl with the millionare boyfriend
saying i have to make things happen
 
but he paid her plane tickets first class
payed for her house rent
paid for hotels at $550 a night
put her on pay roll of $400.000
how the hell can she said make it happen
her life is bought
like the time i asked about why she had only 4 holliday days
free for me if i traled 5000 miles but had all the time in the world for him
"Money makes it diffrent " she said
 Money makes it diffrent ...what an awful thing to have in my memorys
my turkish girl left to chace money
it all makes me feel so fucking worthless
.i cant even give myself to someone
with nothing
im still un wanted
.it all fucking hurts