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My dad was sick for a year and almost died many times. They didn't know what was wrong with him. My mom would take us to the hospital to see him for the last time (this happened many times).  He...

I began to write on the index cards yesterday after work and a trip to the 99 cent store. I felt angry and I wrote down many things on each card. Things he said that hurt me, things he did that hurt...

Quote from the book: "The verbal abuser who chooses to withhold will respond to requests for communication with :1. "Theres nothing to talk about"2. "What do you want me to say?"3. "What are you...

Well lets just say I got to go to Church guilt free and am beginning to realize that my boyfriend was not a man God sent for me to be with. I did not cry this Thanksgiving and I remember many...

Well my BF works nights and today is my Birthday and he went to his brothers after work instead of coming home to see me today of all days. I feel so disappointed, hurt, and uncared for. We should be...

I do not know what to do from here. I feel like I am on a ride and it's not stopping for me to get off right at this time. I feel an inevitable ending is unavoidable although my dream would be for...

I read a lot about emotional abuse now and I know that is what my relationship is all about. I am wondering how I am ever going to discuss this whole thing with him and figure out what to do and how...

Why do I keep going back with this guy? I just read my journals from 2008 to now and if I stand back and look carefully at my own words what the heck am I doing this to myself for? All my problems...

I am beginning to hate myself. I do not think anyone likes me (bi polar day?) and I feel like everything is my  fault. I can't be around my family, i can't live with my boyfriend, and I don't have...

Life seems to show me good things and then some how I get focused on all the bad. I took him back 2 weeks ago and in only two weeks I feel all the joy has disappeared and all the good feelings melted...

I just want to feel happiness. It seems like an impossible dream. I feel like my life depends on what someone else does. Is that what love is supposed to be? Or the loss of love?? I hate when he...

And I kept thinking it was my fault....that's what he kept saying!

together/break-up together/break-up together/break-up...finally I think I am done. I feel better lately because my doctor finally found the right medication for me (I had too many allergic reactions...

So today I came back on here after being gone a long time and it is because I am pondering my moods lately and how they can control me at times. Right now I was thinking that the only time I have...

I am going to try to take a walk, drink lots of water, rest when I feel I need it, and do my daily tasks as I should like shower, dress, go outside, eat right, try to lose a bit more weight, and cut...