I am so upset

Well my BF works nights and today is my Birthday and he went to his brothers after work instead of coming home to see me today of all days. I feel so disappointed, hurt, and uncared for. We should be home at about the same time noon. But he is an hour and a half away and he is still at his brothers and I feel like leaving somewhere and not being here when he comes home. I wish I had friends i would just go have a good time somewhere else and tell him to get lost!! He took tonight off supposedly to take me out to dinner for my birthday and instead of him coming home and get some sleep he stayed there for hours plus the drive home. I am not going to wake him tonight to say get up and take me like you said. Watch he wont wake up and I'll stay home and he did this same thing to me two weeks ago said he was taking the night off work to take me out and we never went anywhere because he does everything else then sleeps and doesn't get up. I feel like is is such a screw you, your not important enough for me to make anything special happen when i say i will. I am beginning to feel hatred and a lot of anger!! I am not happy with this guy and how he does things. He always says he will but he ruins everything special. Anything that means something to me he acts like he doesn't care about. I feel so mad!!!! I picture my fist in his face so hard he cries. I want him to cry and feel like I do when he hurts me!! I know i sound irate and crazy because maybe I am, I don't know if its my fault. It might be because I can't ever be happy! What the hell? Why can't I ever be special? Why do I do all the things I do for him? Buy him gifts, cook dinners, pack his lunch for work, wash his truck, take care of the house inside and out and he just works and does whatever he wants. I think I am feeling a lot of resentment right now too! Put a Cherry on that!