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I am writing this painful journal to let everyone know that I still love Brad.We were togther for 12 and half years and some of them were good.but for the past three years Brad actions towards me...

On the 22nd of September it will be 16  months that my Brad took his life.And i am in so much pain I am hurting also.And all of the therapies that have been recommended simply do not help.I feel so...

Friday was August 27th.It was the 25th anniversay of the death of my doctor...the honorable Dr.Floyd Fortuin.Dr. Fortuin guided me for 23 years and I am so much better all because of him.He died of a...

 The anniversay of Brads death is coming up on Sunday the 22nd of August and already i feel so out of it.It was such a shock to me and I will never forget his final act.Brad died in my arms and I...

On July 22nd,it was 14 months since Brad took his life.And to me it has been a nightmare.YOu see every day I ask the question why.At the time of his death,Brad was making 45,000 a year which is good...

 ß today is June 29th,2010 and I made it.I am now selling the homeless paper in seattle and I havent told anyone.I did not make much money today.It is like a business.The more papers you sell,the...

ß Tuesday it will be 13 months that I lost my Brad.And what a month it was! I have grown as a person and have developed new interests.Not friends.Interests such as opera and trvel.I never had thse...

On May 22nd,2010 brad was dead for one year.ANd what a year it was! It was one oftrying to keep the house together and I almost lost my cats.Kramer was Brads favorite cat and Kramer was looking for...

Brads sister is not speaking to me all because she wanted to know why she wasnt contacted.First of all she lives almost two hours away and Brad told me on various occassions if anything does...

Brad will be dead for one year on May 22nd.And it has been a tough year for me becausei am finding out stuff about him that has broken my heart.He wasnt the nice guy that Ipretended that he was.He...

There was a song in the 1960s...it was called rambling rose.This journal will sound rambling and I hope that things will work out.I have got the funds for april and i still have money left over.Out...

Guess what? I got the funds for the April rent and I have been working.I am a mystery shopper and i have got several assignments this week.Some of them donot pay much and that is a shame,but i am in...

I finally made it March.I paid the rent.I dont have any more funds left and i am running out of options.I miss Brad and i dont know why he did this to me.I feel naked and I feel alone and I feel like...

On 2/18/2010..Brad would have been 50 and it was a a good day for me.I arose and i cried over the fact that this is his first birthday without a celebration.I was waiting for a message from stanley...

tomorrow is2/18 and it woul d have been brads 50 th birthday.He is not here to help me celebrate and in fact this is the first birthday without him.Brad was strange when it came to holidays and...