vader

It is friday the 18th of April and I choose this black type just for emphasis.So much  has happened but I do know this.I do not love Brad anymore and never did.When I moved to Seattle in 1995,I had...

Hi.My name is Vader.On August 1st,2004 I received the call that changed my life.It was from my other brother who lives in New Jersey.He called to tell me that my older brother Frank died today.And...

the thought that Brad did not love me has hurt me to the extreme.He was my rock for almost 13 years and to have him turn on me is just too much for me to take.I will always love Brad and it is not my...

 Love hurts and what hurts more is that the fact i am not girlfriend material and i never will be.I feel abandoned and i feel lost and I feel like noone will ever help or love me again.But I do feel...

many years ago I was supposed to be married.We were going to elope .I was 19 and he was 25.We were very much in love.But then something happened and it never was.Afew years passed and much to my...

I realize now that Brad in his own tortured way was begging for help.But I also realize at the end Brad did not love me and when I realized this..I felt so much better.Love is so different for...

 Today Brad would have been 51 and this pain is growing.He is all I think about and where I am I cant get any help.If you are on a limited income in seattle,there is really no help available in...

Brads death has hit me hard and i am finding new ways to get around it.Number one I am eating better.I now eat three meals a day.I am getting food stamps now because my income is  low.Everybody...

it was 20 months since I lost Brad and i am discovering who my real friends are.And It is very,very lonely at the top.I feel so abandoned and i have  got really noone to talk to.This is because...

Βwhy am I still choked with emotion? It has been 20 months!But the emotion of seeing Brad dead and seeing the police put him in that bag will always be part of me> I miss Brad.We were not getting...

On Saturday the 22nd of January it will be 20 months since I Lost Brad and for 20 months I had nothing b ut problems and now I believe they are ceasing.I have someone who is going to sublet my garage...

On the 22nd of December it was 19 months that I found my Brad.It was a very gruesome sight and I will never forget it.These 19 months have been one of growth for me and i realize that I must go...

 This journal will make other people mad and I expect a lot of flak.But the other woman who Brad was seeing to me is responbile for his death.When I met Brad,all he did was talk about her and he...

♦ it will be 18 months on the 22nd of November that myBrad took his life.It has been nothing but trauma for me and I cant seem to forget it.Finding him was the most and most horrible day of my...

♦ it will be 18 months on the 22nd of November that myBrad took his life.It has been nothing but trauma for me and I cant seem to forget it.Finding him was the most and most horrible day of my...