another painful anniversary......

Friday was August 27th.It was the 25th anniversay of the death of my doctor...the honorable Dr.Floyd Fortuin.Dr. Fortuin guided me for 23 years and I am so much better all because of him.He died of a disease that there is no cure for.My doctor died of cancer.And he was terminal when they operated and his family never told him.You see he was a very smoker.I want to forget about that day when I found out that he was dead..but i cant and it bothers me and i want to go back and wish he still was alive and I come out of all these problems and am happy again.When I was a little girl growing up in the 1950s one of the lead actresses was Marilyn Monroe and she said before she died that she was never used to be happy and this is something that she has never taken for granted.Today i have a great many worrried and I dont know what to do.What do you do when you have no money and the bills have to be
paid? WHo do you talk to? What do I do now that Brad is dead?He left me with very limited funds and I am struggling just trying and everyday like today I cry and wish I was a pit bull puppy because puppies are cute and they have got no worries.That is all for the anniversary.