march and the pain is growing..he did not love me vader

I realize now that Brad in his own tortured way was begging for help.But I also realize at the end Brad did not love me and when I realized this..I felt so much better.Love is so different for guys.Guys can go to another person and start over.I am 63 years old and I cant start over.Guys can.And I do think that Brad wanted a new life away from me.so it goes.