ok so i wrote this like lil poem thing and my mom saw it and absolutly freaked out! this is what it said.the day has come, it's time to go and say good by to this awful world. the day's are ok but i just want them to go away.and i accidently left it on the table in my computer room and i had left with some friends and she saw it and like about had a heart attact. she called and i didn't answer and she left a message and was like you need to call me it's an emergancy so i did and she was like why did you write that and was freaking out so i went home and she was like i would die if something happend to you. and was like i could barly stand and she was just really freaked. i didn't mean to freak her out. i know if she saw some of my poems that she would freak or somethign so that's why i like hide them. and she was just like dont' write that stuff, and told me to stop. but i told her that writing that stuff into a poem was a way to get the stuff out and  stuff. she asked me what i needed her to do and idk, idk what i'm suppose to do to help myself let alone what she's suppose to do. and she asked if the counseling was workign and idk it's only my 3rd time so i have no idea and i told her ya i think so but that i would really like to be in an inpatient place because it's hard living here and stuff where the abuse happend adn that being somewhere else would help me bc i wouldn't alway's be like scared and nervous and stuff and i could focus on me more and not like being scared and stuff, idk. so ya that is pretty much it. she said that she might consider puting me on anti depressent's but she's just really scared cuz she doesn't want me to kill myself.