hey guy's just got back from meeting with my counselor, well and eating lunch with my mom.the counseling went good. umm we didn't talk about mason coming home or being suicidal we just talked about the abuse and all that. it was very hard to talk about but i did and she was very impressed and proud of me. at the beginning she was like i was looking over my notes from our last meeting and i am very proud that you answered my questions. talking about the abuse was hard i wanted to cut right then and there. i meet with her again next week. she asked to see my cut's again. i think she'll be asking that every time especialy if i cut. she said were gonna work on my self esteme and getting my bulima and anerxiea unercontrol and so i don't think she know's about me being suicidal, maybe i should tell her but how. just be like umm i'm suicidal and i am scared of myself? that seem's weird to me, idk maybe just cuz i never do that i wait till someone asked me i guess. if you don't ask i wont tell is basicly how i work lol and if you asked i will usually alway's give you the honest answer and if i don't it's cuz i don't feel like talking about it or something. well that's it for me i think, i'm really tired.