i don't know what to do i can't handling knowing he's coming back. if i'm already like this what will happen when he is here? i'm not one to voice my oppinion and let people know what i'm think and everything, i dont' feel my thought and feeling's matter so why even voice them. i want my brother here i don't want my abuser her but idk if i trust that he wont do it again. i don't want to dissipoint my mom and tell her she can't have his son here. i don't knwo what to do i feel horrible. i went on a drive tonight with my dog down to the river and i sat there and fell asleep and i just wanted to stay there i didn't want to leave. i wanted to die too, it was just so over whelming that i couldn't handl it i had thought's of suicide all over in my head and they wouldn't leave. i wanted to cut so bad but i didn't have anythign sharp enough so i was gonna burn myself but my lighter thing in the car wouldn't work, so i came home and i cut. i know i felt so bad tho i still do. i still want to cut again. i can't do this i really can't. i hate it i hate him. i'm still scared of him and i don't know what to do
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Talk with your couselor about this first thing, and your parents. Try to replace your fear with strength. Your not being harmed now and your old enough to stand up for yourself and say no - that you will not accept behavior like that. Most likely, you have nothing to fear. It sounds like your brother regrets the mistakes that he made in his relationship with you, and that he won\'t be abusive again. Be sure to tell you parent how you feel.
Let everyone know how you feel so they can make sure to pay close attention to his actions. If worse comes to worse, ask a friend or family memeber if you can stay there for a bit...
you need to leave home.........
U need to tell your dad. He listens to you. Just open up and tell him honestly how u feel. It isn\'t fair if you dont. EVEN if u think no one cares about your feelings, tell him. Then see where it goes from there.