Still hanging
Well I am still hanging in with not picking back up the bottle. I have to be honest and admit that tonight has been hard. I have been wanting a drink really bad tonight. I have hit a bottom or something tonight. I would really like to just curl up in a ball, go to sleep and not wake up tomorrow or ever again. Then I wouldn't have to worry about staying sober or dealing with BP or anything else. I didn't pick up though. I really don't want to die drunk. I want people to be able to say to me......at least she died sober. I guess this should be a little bit happier since it is a positive goal update but I am just not happy today. I was up this morning a little aggitated but still up and tonight has been one big thud. Anyway.......I am still sober.
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