sakuraowl

wejust when I think I'm ok, boom! Right before I fell asleep my heart felt like it was breaking in half again and all my fears and sadness came back. I prayed for peace to sleep and I guess it worked...

it's the day after Thanksgiving , and an awful Thanksgiving it was for me , so I am so glad that it is over . I went to buy a Christmas tree for my son , found a nice tall one at a not so expensive...

well, Thanksgiving. I used to look forward to it , my child and husband was home and we could all just eat hang out and be a family . Today is not like that, I wish I could just skip thanksgiving ....

I think I have been handling things the best I caN, I was a non confrontational wife . I just wanted to keep him happy ...for years . I see it now , I don't know how I became that way . I don't like...

i am frustrated with myself , my feelings about this situation have not changed . I want him to leave , I am ready to be divorced and I want to heal my life and move on. I am definitly extremely...

well , I'm not speaking to my stbx that much at all , actually I haven't said 1 word since yesterday , I just have nothing to say . My husband is dumping me that is it . It is what it is for whatever...

right now the hardest things to me is my financial situation this month and living with my stbx. My son wants him to stay through Christmas , I have financial issues this month and I can't afford to...

we went to a child first Thing at the court it was mandatory , we were with other divorcing couples and watched a video . It simplified divorce for the kids and adults. A purple house where everyone...

I feel better today then I did in the last journal entry I wrote. I have been slowly catching up on bills that fell behind when this all first started, thinking of what kind of single parent do I...

just when I think I turned a corner it comes back , the hurt . For no reason today I felt heavy like something weighed on me all day . After everyone went to sleep I hugged my dog and told him I was...

its been ten weeks , not very long in general but it felt like forever. my feelings have changed quite a bit for my stbx. I really feel like I don't Love him anymore. because of this cruelty he has...

i had a chat with a girlfriend , and it was common sense stuff but sometimes when you are in the middle of a mess like this you don't have common sense... I get angry all the time ( I never was this...

yes it hurts , I feel like a heavy Knights sword is in my chest and just hanging there . The weight of the pain is there constantly . I just hope in time it will be less heavy. With that being said ,...

I was feeling the detachment, but I have realized that I just don't care about what my husband does anymore ... I don't care who he talks to, I dont care how late he works, I don't concern myself...

I feel that I have started to detach emotionally from my husband , I have been intentionally withdrawing from conversation or even acknowledgement of his presence at least most of the time. I think I...